So, Let's Skip Ahead

Note to the few viewers- I am sorry my last post had a bad grammatical structure with yous and Is. Anyways, on with it

Instead of updating from Sarajevo, the city I was named after and also where I landed, I am now in the industrial city of Tuzla (Two- Zla). I have actually been here for four days and yet I am totally still unsure what day of the week it is, afraid that if I ask it will be only answered with the 26 of June. The house I am in is with my Aunt and Uncle, Amira and Faruk who are way too nice for their own good. It is strictly impossible for me to be cold (I feel that I am always sweating with the constant badgering to put on socks, slippers, jackets, long sleeves, and if I had brought scarves that would be a necessity too) and it is also impossible for me to be hungry. I don't think I have been hungry for the past 6 days that I have been here because I am constantly being fed, I think I have six meals a day. Even eating after all this I am asked if I am still hungry and that I haven't eaten enough. Yet the thing to understand is that they are not overbearing like my grandmother who lives in Sarajevo. And I adore them, as well as my cousins, though I refuse to actually hold a long conversation with any of them. My vocabulary consists of ne(no), da(yes), dobro(good - I say this way too much), isveni(I äm sorry) and other words that are very practical.

My lack of knowledge of how to write Bosnian is also horrific. Example: I have been reading this book called The Fountainhead, some may know it and may detest it but I find it intriguing and a book I can literally not put down (Example within an Example, I spent one night reading until 2 by using my own camera to light up the book +There is a menu for a tutorial which stays on for 5minutes, I discovered a method in which I could hold the camera and scroll the tutorial to keep constant lightage+) so anyways, I was reading this book and still am. Two nights ago I was sitting in the TV-Family room and time passes by, from 9 to 10 to 11 and I'm reading wondering why is Faruk and Amira are still up. I finally get up and say goodnight, going to my cousin Selma's room to sleep. I notice then the bustling of the couch being transformed to a bed. In which it finally dawns on me that I had been sitting on their bed and delaying them the thing they both needed the most, sleep. Here I am trying to be like a fly on the wall, but instead being an elephant in the way to necessary human relaxation. And of course I felt terrible, and of course you may be thinking it is not a big deal, and let me say how wrong you are. It was to me. So I brewed and brewed and couldn't sleep. I was left there pondering how to apologize to them so I got one of my cards and wrote them in English what I really needed to say and then in Bosnian, what I could translate. It took me about 5minutes to figure out to spell 1 word in Bosnian which was isveni (I am sorry, and I still don't know if that's spelled correctly). So then opening the door very carefully, I crawled out into the hallway, not knowing where to put the letter, I dropped it in the middle of the floor and then skittered back to my bed. I finally was able to sleep.

This is what ignorance and not knowing how to write Bosnian, left me with. A situation which was unneeded and made more dramatic in my head then by anything else. So all in all ignorance is not bliss if you cannot be completely ignorant of everything around you.

Day 6